plutoprojector

you did not expect that we can meet again.

so, hi 24?

it is still bizarre because you are still standing on your two bare feet, even though there are a little bloody, some cuts and abrasions you are still gripping on hoping that your pedestal will become stronger as time goes by there is no cake anymore, nor surprises after waking up, or greetings at home favorably you still can celebrate alone even though it feels a bit reluctant and circumspect

met several people who broke your heart, incised wounds repeatedly, and hurt so much that you fell over and over again a ghosted-anime-weebs that still haunt you for years, a rockstar that made you confess, or that Scorpio guy who breaks your heart into pieces, ugly crying till seek professional help because you cannot handle it anymore or someone who should be a good example, who should be your first love, but turns out the one you fought coldly because he made you feel like you failed to be the eldest

men are really disappointing.

was diagnosed as psychosomatic back then because the tightness could no longer be endured, as time went on it turned into a very painful pain on one side of the head you have to manage your emotions amidst the onslaught of a family that seems to forget that you have limitations latch yourself up in a dim room, cry out until your lungs out your breath is getting shallower have nothing to dream about because for a moment the future seems so gray and blurred

should you give up?

leaving those who at least still care about you giving their support, and kind words that strengthen you every day some hopes that actually still spark at the end of your heart

at least, survive for yourself as well as the people who want to see you alive